Implode Explode

Today I woke not with the heartbreak I thought I would have but raging with a fiery, consuming anger, I hated the world and all the stupid people whose intention in life was to make mine a misery. I snapped at both Mother and Maritka and slammed out of the house daring for anyone to get in my way. I sat at work and just glared at Caspar whenever he walked anywhere near me and let the phone ring endlessly before answering it to snarl at whatever hapless bood was on the other end.

I hated everything and I let everyone at work know it was probably not wise to approach me for any reason and even bitchy Tim kept his distance. Simon who obviously has the survival instinct of a brick came up to ask me where did Caspar want the new props stored and I gave him such a look of hate his voice trailed off while he stared at me in surprise. I have never seen myself as making much impact on the people around me but today everyone knew exactly how I felt and I half expected Caspar to come out of his office and fire me, which would have been just fine with me because I was tired of running interference with all his stupid affairs. In fact I put every single phone call through to him so he was unable to escape a single bood all day for if I was going to be tormented so was everyone else around me!

My day did not get easier in fact it got worse, much worse and I reacted in a way that surprised even me. Just when I had managed to get Caspar to answer his own phone and everyone else to leave me alone, in waltzed Ladonna with Gervais oozing in behind her. It was hard enough to be put into hell because of him but I was not about to sit about entertaining him while Ladonna went over her insane idea’s with Caspar. So I bolted out the back and pretended to be helping Simon count deliveries, as I was not certain I could stop myself from stabbing that smarmy bastard in his face. Simon looked a bit surprised at first as I had never stepped out back before as this was his domain. Simon was older than me but I think a few years younger than Gervais and Caspar. A big, quiet guy he never had too much to say and I never paid him much attention past an idle appreciation of his cuteness.

Claudia who shouted at everyone never shouted at Simon and Tim would go on about him being so buff but Simon was so huge it would never do to cross any boundaries. So who ever Simon was he managed to keep Claudia’s vicious tongue in check and Tim’s libido confined to his social life, even Caspar never gave him orders, it felt more like suggestions. I felt a bit strange invading his area but getting away from Gervais was more important than worrying if I was annoying Simon and I stood about being pretty much useless as I had no idea what I was doing. I think Simon guessed I was in hiding but as usual said nothing and just kept working. I was staring at a box of vases trying to look interested when a voice in my ear sent chills up my spine.

Gervais had managed to wander away from Ladonna and find me out here. I knew I couldn’t have hid from him long as Caspar was not about to stop Gervais from doing exactly what he wanted and I certainly was not about to ask anyone else to stand between me and him. I spun around and gave Gervais a look of utter hate for there was no reason for me to show any semblance of courtesy to him, he had done his evil deeds and I was going to let him know how I felt. Gervais took my elbow and tried to steer me back into the front area where he would try to isolate me no doubt but I was having none of it. I wrenched myself free from him and told him he was not to be in the back, it was dangerous so all customers need to be out the front reception. Gervais smiled as if he found me amusing and reminded me in his smarmy bastard voice that we did have a little understanding. This was the last straw for me, I had done everything he had demanded but I did not have to spend my time with him and I told him this in a very loud voice.

In fact I think I might have been shouting for Simon had stopped moving boxes and was hovering in the background. Maybe he was worried I was going to pick up a crowbar and dong Gervais on the head which would have been a great improvement in him, a bit of bleeding would improve Gervais a lot. I told Gervais that the terms of our agreement had been met and I did not and would not be speaking to him anymore and to get away from me. For the first time in our entanglements Gervais looked a bit surprised as I guess he didn’t expect such ranting fury from me, even I didn’t realise just how angry I was until I started shouting at him.

In an effort to calm me he took my arm again and I pulled away violently. As he moved forward to grab me again Simon to my complete shock moved in between us. In a quiet but very stern voice he suggested that Mr. Dubois return to the front area where it would be safer for him. Gervais instead of being upset looked amused by the entire incident and left almost chuckling. How I longed to be a man cause I would punch his headlights right out.

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