Moving in or Moving On

News spread like wildfire when Nadia was no longer pregnant and although no one had the details, the basic story was that Taryn had stepped in and told Nadia that in no uncertain circumstances would she allow Braith to marry her or even continue a relationship and then arranged a visit to a clinic that specialized in unwanted pregnancies. Nadia in the face of this came clean about her pregnancy being faked and decided to leave town for a short spell.

Nadia had barely left town for ten seconds when Lynx got bored and started another fling with Caspar Royale. While Nadia was laying low someplace Lynx and Caspar were exploring tongues in a very public manner at Zebub’s much to the delight of the gossiparati

On a roll, Taryn then laid down the law to Royce and arranged a family dinner which would include none other than Elyce and Liselle Dubois with no sports bimbo in sight. Although Royce was in the midst of setting up his own business he was still unable to shake the control of his family and when Taryn made it clear she would not brook any argument he went silent in his Royce way that signaled submission to his mother. Braith was in no position to offer support and Tiah could not rouse herself out of her perpetual self pity status to do more than moan about the guest list. If Gervais had thought the news of the dinner party was going to get me to call him up to send Elyce away he was greatly mistaken for I was not going to jeopardize my relationship with Simon for any Vanderhaven and instead concentrated on what was important which was us.

Simon surprised me after dinner by taking my hand and saying that everything was going really well but he felt we could do more and I was a little perplexed as to what more exactly was, when he continued that he thought we should live together. Although we practically were living together, I was over at the flat every other day I still liked the idea of having home to go to. I tried to deflect him by saying we were practically living together but he waved that aside and said all the driving around was annoying and we should just finish the move as I almost lived there so I should remove the rest of my things to his place.

I didn’t know how to deal with this, it was too soon and although I was very happy in our relationship I wasn’t sure about living with someone as I had never been away from home and while we are at Simon’s it is his place. He does lots of the cooking, has everything set up how he chose and even though I am comfortable there it has none of me in it. I told him these things and without even blinking he replied that we could move to a place we would choose together and I could set it all up myself.

I could see at that moment that Simon had progressed a lot faster than I had in our relationship and he was expecting things from me I was uncertain I could deal with. I told him that looking would be fun but it was really just to stall him until I knew what I really wanted. I don’t want to lose Simon but I don’t have the same conviction for him that I had for Jojo, when Jojo and I were trying to get together there was no division, no considering if I wanted it, it was already set in my mind and my heart. Although I feel love for Simon I was aware it was not the same wild ‘can’t live without feeling’, perhaps this is what a mature relationship is about, making decisions without wild emotions interfering. I was not about to toss this out the door, I just wanted time to explore it more as there were so many things I needed to decide, some of it was working what I wanted in life. I said none of this to Simon because he acted like he was certain of it all and our being together was something he had decided in his mind, he knew for me the way I had known for Jojo.

Simon and I go together well in so many ways such as our families as I like his father, the work is interesting enough if you are keen on luxury cars and mother loves Simon, thinking he is mature enough for me and a perfect boyfriend. The truth is that Simon is a perfect boyfriend but he wants to be more and being this is my first serious relationship I am wondering if his maturity has him moving more quickly than I can. I wanted to call Jazz and ask her about Braith and how she knew he was the one but it was probably too soon so I stalled Simon the best I could until I am able to work out how to deal with moving into his life completely.

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